If you have been missing my regular weekly postings on here, I apologize. I’ve had a little bit more excitement than I like in the Blanco household lately, and am looking forward to some down time soon! We are in a weird phase of our lives right now, as we wait on the Lord for Juan’s job situation (no word yet on anything!), the sale of our home (we’re still hoping we won’t have to sell and move!) and potential move. It’s so strange to not know anything.
It’s been real growth for me though, as I tend to want to know where, when, and how constantly! I want to plan (are we supposed to plant our citrus trees, or do we wait?) and I want to enroll the kids in activities. I want to know where the kids are attending school this fall, and…
Well, as I try to plan, God laughs. No, He’s not laughing at me, necessarily, He’s laughing softly with me. He’s amused by my innocent bewilderment, and as I surrender (again and again!) to His will, His plan, and His desires for me, I cry. I cry tears of relief, for He really does have it all under control. I cry tears of anger at myself for losing my way again. I cry tears of joy, for He brings me joy. I am once again found by Him in the middle of the wilderness, and He plucks me out of it and sets me down in the oasis for a cool drink of water.
Wow, He’s good. All the time. Even when I’m not! He’s always good.
Just a couple of days ago, when the emotional pressure of the above issue and a few others that come with running a home based business while raising four kids was growing unbearable, I broke. I was in my bathroom, and I was having a talk with God (at the sink, in case you were getting grossed out, although the bathroom does tend to be my place of sanity and the ONLY place I can get alone!) Anyway, he was so loving to me as I had my mini-breakdown. He spoke to me so softly.
"Bess, why are you worrying?" That was all He said, and all He had to say, because that was enough as the conviction rushed over me. Scripture came to me, reminding me that I was not supposed to worry, but be in faith and trust Him. Oh, that was a good moment with Him!
How has He been good to you this week? God bless you, my dear friends and family, as you journey this never dull, and always rewarding road with our God!
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